I don’t have the energy to meet
with everyone and say goodbye.
I don’t want to drag this move
out any longer than required.
Watching the packers today was
tiring. Holding Piper all day was
draining.
Once we get where we are going
and settle in, I will be fine. But
right now my heart is so heavy
and my eyes are moist with tears.
When Craig and I bought our very
first house, I experienced a “this is
the one” moment. We had spent
quite a few hours looking, Iwas
getting tired and we had not seen
anything that we liked. Then our
agent said, “I have one more to
show you. It was just listed today.”
My “it” moment happened as we
turned onto Greenford Avenue. My
stomache did a flip and I just knew
that the next house was going to be
“it”. And it was.
The entire time we lived in that house
(which was only about 1.5 years) I knew
that we would not have any children
while we were living there. I just sensed
it. And we didn’t.
As much as I love the home that we are
living in, I now know it was meant to be
transitory. The reason for our time here
was simply to get us back out West.
I know that now. But I am still going to miss it.
We struggled here to start our family. As
I sit here all alone and this house sits quiet
and still, I can close my eyes and hear many
memories.
I can hear Craig and I laughing,
talking and crying. I can hear Molson
walking on the hardwood floors, our
hockey billet and his teammates watching
movies, playing xbox and cards.
And I can hear the sound of our baby
crying…. finally.
She won’t grow up here but this is
the home where our family began
and she made her precious start.
And I do not want to forget those
memories.
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I can’t even imagine moving out of the house that we brought our boys home to … finally.
Good luck with the goodbye’s… I hate saying goodbye!
Home is where your hubby and daughter is, the house is just walls and doors.
Take care and hope the move goes smoothly, it’s too bad your hubby isn’t able to be with you.
hmmm I posted a comment already but it didn’t work. Anyway, you might not remember every smile, every laugh, every shared tear…but, you will remember how that home made you FEEL. Good luck with the move and I can’t wait to see you in a couple of weeks!
You will never forget Nicole. I totally understand what you are feeling. We just moved Jeff’s parents, and they lived in their home for 25 years. Jeff and his brothers all grew up there. I know you have been there as long, but I get a sense of what you are going through. Everything will work out, and good luck with the move!
Good luck with the move and remember that you may not be able to take the house with you, but you can bring your memories with you everywhere you go! Smooches to Piper from Lily!