Go on birth control that is…. (laughing hysterically).
I am infertile, that we know. The birth control would
not be to control any unplanned pregnancies… an
unplanned pregnancy, for me, would be like winning
the lottery.
But, at least I would be cycling regularly.
I haven’t tested, out of fear… afraid that I will only
see one line and then it confirms which train I will
have to get back on. I am also afraid that I could
very well see two pink lines and, well, have another
baby just as Piper is turning one!
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Edited to Add: Okay, I did it. I POAS. It totally
felt like old times. Especially when I saw the results…
I have never seen the result window so effing white.
I have an appointment with my RE for next week. Craig
and I figured that now would be good time to get things
going for when we are ready to start trying for number
two. Fuck. I. Cried. As I always did, every single
fucking time I saw that single fucking line. Fuck. It
hurts even when not actively trying for bambino number two.
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Aw, Rumour! Piper is lucky to have such a loving Mommy and Bambino#2-yet-to-come is too. I hope the RE has some good advice and ideas. Hopefully TTC#2 will be a little easier?
*Thinking of you*
Nic, all those memories and pain must be flooding back. I do agree on the birth control pills, if it’s only for peace of mind and some regularity.