Pick myself up

by Rumour Miller on August 26, 2007

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Dust off my knees and move on…

That is what I feel like I need to do and now.
I just want to put this behind me and move
forward. I am terrified that we won’t get
pregnant right away and then I will be desperate
to get pregnant.

I don’t want that again. I hate this fucking ride.

Honest to God, I see people out there who have kids
they can’t afford, or that they don’t really want and
I want to fucking scream! I just want to scream.

I read about parents who aren’t fit to be called parents
and they have babies, beautiful babies. And I hate them.
And I hate them even more because it isn’t their fault
that this has been the journey that we were meant to
be on.

So tomorrow, or maybe the next day. I don’t really know,
but soon. I will put this behind me and pick myself up, dust
off my bruised and bloody knees and move on.

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{ 6 comments }

soralis August 27, 2007 at 12:01 am

Oh my I am so very sorry. Sending you a big hug.

Lora August 27, 2007 at 8:54 am

Big hugs to you! I’m so sorry this is happening to you.

Mony August 27, 2007 at 5:52 pm

I found lots of encouragement in your “blinkies” I like the one that says “Never Give Up”.

We never do, huh?

Piccinigirl August 28, 2007 at 3:23 pm

I’ll be thinking of you as you get ready to dust yourself off.
BIG HUGS to you

Flygirl August 28, 2007 at 8:01 pm

Oh no. Rumour, I am so very sorry. 🙁

Ladybug Ann August 29, 2007 at 6:30 pm

Nicole,
I am so sorry. Sending lots of hugs.

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