Dust off my knees and move on…
That is what I feel like I need to do and now.
I just want to put this behind me and move
forward. I am terrified that we won’t get
pregnant right away and then I will be desperate
to get pregnant.
I don’t want that again. I hate this fucking ride.
Honest to God, I see people out there who have kids
they can’t afford, or that they don’t really want and
I want to fucking scream! I just want to scream.
I read about parents who aren’t fit to be called parents
and they have babies, beautiful babies. And I hate them.
And I hate them even more because it isn’t their fault
that this has been the journey that we were meant to
be on.
So tomorrow, or maybe the next day. I don’t really know,
but soon. I will put this behind me and pick myself up, dust
off my bruised and bloody knees and move on.
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Oh my I am so very sorry. Sending you a big hug.
Big hugs to you! I’m so sorry this is happening to you.
I found lots of encouragement in your “blinkies” I like the one that says “Never Give Up”.
We never do, huh?
I’ll be thinking of you as you get ready to dust yourself off.
BIG HUGS to you
Oh no. Rumour, I am so very sorry. 🙁
Nicole,
I am so sorry. Sending lots of hugs.