“I’m going to do a terrific show today! And I’m gonna help people! Because I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and, doggonit, people like me!” ~ Stuart Smalley (SNL)
I don’t do this enough. In fact, I hardly ever do it. I need to do it more often. There are many times in my life that I question my abilities as a Mother. Wife. Lawyer. Sometimes I question my abilities on a daily basis. I need my own daily affirmation,
“I am going to have a great day today! And I’m going to be a great Mother, Wife and Lawyer. Because I am good enough, I am smart enough, and, doggonit, people like me!”
People that I work with tell me that I am good lawyer… sometimes they even tell me that I am great. They want me to work with them (They actually want me!) and I’m often left wondering why I don’t always feel that way. Why are there days when I still question my abilities as a lawyer. I think there is a fine line to be drawn here… I think if the day comes that I no longer question my abilities as a lawyer at all, is the day I stop learning and start making mistakes. I can never stop learning.
The same goes for my abilities as a Mother and a Wife. I can always do better. Do more. Play longer. Clean better (well this we know for a fact because my dishes really aren’t done and my house really is a mess and if you don’t believe me you can ask Craig. I give you permission).
We need to believe in ourselves for ourselves and for the people that love us or rely on us. I have 3 Divas that count on that day in and day out. Morning, noon and night.
I’ve kinda hinted around about going back to work… and I am. Even after Diva 3, it’s a hard decision to make. I am so fortunate that I can work on a part time basis right now. That makes a return to work much easier to swallow. The last time I returned to work, I got a phone call when Davilyn was 3 or 4 months old and I was asked if I would consider coming back early. After a lot of thinking and discussions with Craig, I did return early one day a week. We negotiated my pay structure via email and when I would come back and that was it.
So, I was a bit nervous when I was asked to actually go to my office for a meeting with the Executive. I should have been saying my daily affirmations, because nothing positive was running through my mind. I was wondering what could be so bad that they would want to meet with me. Instead, I should have been asking, what could be so good. I mean, they want me back early and not just because they want me to line their pockets with all my billable hours….
So, folks. I am going back on the 15th. One day a week until March when I will return 3 days a week. These are the days that I am in the office. There might also be some changes on the horizon to my area of practise and I am nervous and excited about it. Did I mention nervous?
“I am going to have a great day, today! And I am going to be a great Mother, Wife and Lawyer. Because I am good enough, I am smart enough and, doggonit, people like me!”
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Nicole – You are good enough, smart enough and doggonit – I LIKE YOU!!! I’m so happy you are coming back. It’ll be good to have you back!!! You are an AWESOME lawyer!!!! Your compassion makes it that way, to you your clients are still people and not just a $$$$$ amount….That’s what makes you a good lawyer. It think you deserve to pat yourself on the back. When the clients stop being people that’s when its time to re-evaluate your career choice. Again, so very glad your coming back!