Family Ties

by Rumour Miller on June 28, 2011

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Quite a few years ago (coming on six to be exact), I wrote this post here about a misunderstanding between my Grandmother and I.  Do you know that April 2006 is the last time that I had seen her.  That was until last week.

I wrote, “I watch her hold my cousins baby and I know that she will never hold mine.”  Turns out that was a true statement.  She has never held any of my babies. I am still really sad and emotional about that.  I did see her last Friday.  For the first time in (almost) six years.  I’m not going to lie, it was a bit awkward.  I was really saddened by that.  My relationship with my Grandmother was never awkward.  I always loved going to visit her, walking through her kitchen door with barely a knock.  Hugs and kisses and lots of baking.

On Friday, we talked.  It wasn’t heart wrenching or apologetic.  It was a, nice to see you again after all this time, visit.  See my babies.  I had three.  Girls. Wonderful, beautiful, spirited, goofy and loveable girls.  She talked to Piper and Davilyn.  She joked and she cooed at Quinn.  And it was nice.  It is not what I ever imagined my relationship with my Grandmother would be like.  It is not what I ever imagined my children’s relationship would be like with her.

But.  It is what it is.  There was a time, not that long ago, when I believed that I would never see her again and that she would never see and have the opportunity to meet my Girls.  So I can feel a little bit of closure.  It isn’t what I ever would have wanted but I am gradually learning to accept the things that I cannot change.

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