2011 Year in Review

by Rumour Miller on December 31, 2011

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I am always amazed at how quickly this time of year arrives. Always amazed that I sit here reflecting on the previous year.

2011

What a fine year indeed. It was a year of lasts. A year of pages turning into new chapters. A year of stress wondering if I would come out of 2011 healthy. I did. I am. A year to be thankful for.

Early in the new year, I prepared for a 5th birthday here and my last first birthday to celebrate. It was an emotional time for me for I knew that once my Magoo turned 5, she would be heading off to the public school system. Not a day goes by that I don’t worry about her experiences there. I want her to have a good balance. I want her to have friends. I want her to feel accepted and valued. I want her to thrive.

All while thinking of that… of Piper, I was also thinking about Quinn’s first birthday. My last first birthday to prepare for and get excited for. My last baby was turning one and we were getting further away from the baby stage. My last little bundle of joy was growing up before my eyes and I was wondering how it was possible for that year to have gone so fast. Somehow it felt faster than ever before.

Then I embarked upon my own health journey. Losing over 20 lbs and dealing with a Cancer scare. I had never felt so out of control of my life. Craig and I making the decision to become Infertile by Choice and still not feeling like I was only meant to have three children. But, I am. I have 3 beautiful girls that I am blessed to watch grow, discover and love. I have two angels that I will some day meet. 2011 is the year that we looked infertility in the eye and said “We won.”. Even though I was still very upset the day that Craig had his vasectomy done, I felt good about our decision. I was just having a hard time closing such a big chapter in our life.

I returned to work after my last maternity leave and I mourned the fact that I will never have that experience again.  I can say that I cherished each maternity leave and I lived those moments to the fullest.  I took my girls on many big and little adventures and I do not regret a thing.  I am so thankful that I was able to be home with them and discover the world around us.  There has not been one day that I wish I had done something more.  That is a wonderful feeling.

We took the girls out of day care this year and brought in a Nanny.  She is a quiet, young woman that my girls adore.  She was a life saver for us and when I imagine not having her, I get a cold shiver down my spine… it’s not pretty.  She has made a big difference in our lives and I hope that she will be with us for years to come.

My goals for 2012 will include watching my Piper turn 6, my Davilyn turn 4 and my Quinn turn 2.  I will work hard but I will play harder.  I will continue to work towards a healthier me.  I will invest more in my marriage and my relationship with Craig.  I will remember that before our family, I was “me”.  That before our family, Craig and I were “we”.  I will continue to focus on what is important and celebrate friendships and relationships that are a positive impact in my life.  In the lives of my family.  I will be generous and caring and I will breathe all of my experiences in and embrace them.

2012 we will have more fun.  We will make more memories.  We will continue to Dance as though no one is watching…  to have more moments like these.

 

To see this look everyday.  To cherish their childhood and the fact that they want to spend their time with us.  To remember that just a few short years ago, we were dreaming to have children in our lives.

My wish for all of you in 2012 is to want you already have.  To look at your life now and know it’s good.  To see your spouse sitting next to you and realize that you are more in love with him or her today then you ever have been.  To watch your children play and have a never-ending cup of patience for them.  To be in the moment that is your life and feel full.  Full of love, full of blessings and full of happiness.  So, to you all a wonderful New Year.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” ~ Mark Twain

 

 

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