(Who is 3 and done)
I don’t really feel done.
The peace of knowing we are done has not taken over my mind, heart and soul.
But… we are in fact done.
I am hoping that, as Quinn turns one and becomes more independent, I will find that longing drifting away.
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Oh sweetie, I know that feeling. I have had baby fever lately. but financially and emotionally , not to mention me being 40 it just isn't rational…but in my heart it hurts to know that we are done.
I know that you'll get there too and your DIVAS are just beautiful..look at this blog..I LOVE LOVE LOVE it
and you too….
I hear you. Financially, emotionally, energy wise. I hit the big 3 5 in April and then will be Advanced Maternal Age.
But if Craig piped in that he wanted one more, I'd jump. He's done.
I can tell you that once they get to the age that they're all doing after school activities, three is going to seem like a huge number of children. TWO seems like a lot, with dance schedules, gymnastics, girlscouts, and homework. (And our kids are "under scheduled" compared to a few of their friends!)
You have three amazing kids, and I get why you don't feel "done" yet. I didn't feel "done" for sure until Julia hit first grade. (By which point I was WAY too old – I didn't even have my first girl until almost 35.) But when you have darling toddlers and gorgeous, cuddly babies it's hard not to want more.
I struggle with this too. It is just hard when you love them so much. That's it for now. I am up way too late. Again.
And I love the new header. Beautiful!
Dodi ~ I know, I am already thinking ahead to all of the activities. Even if all three play just hockey, we will be in arenas all winter long every night!
CAGB ~ Thank you! I am hoping that once we are past the infant stage that I start to feel closer to done.
I'm sorry your heart is not sure. I can only tell you, never say never…. if your heart keeps nagging, I say see what happens. There are plenty of families with 4 or more that make it. I hate the feeling of not being sure. Family is everything.
I relate 100%. And to tell you the truth each day is different. Some days I am totally and completely sure I'm done and content. Other days I'll smell something or see something and my heart will lurch with that sudden final-ness of being done. Done with pregnancy, done with newborns, done with 1st bday parties. Its emotional and I know there is a whole world of things to look forward to, but sometimes I like to look back and thats when I hear that "what if." We agreed no more fertility treatments, so it would have to be a miracle. But then again, aren't all babies miracles? 😉 You're such a great mommy!
That's exactly it, Sam. Exactly. I feel done most days. Especially when I am barely keeping afloat (because we do have those days here) but then there are many many moments when amongst the chaos and the silent times that I feel that longing to have one more.
Who is to say that one more will satisfy that longing, though. I think I will always swoon over newborns and babies…
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